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Thursday, September 11, 2008

Giving in to an existential crisis

I had the best intentions of blogging more, but the overwhelming indifference of a world with many other better things to pay attention to provokes a single echoing phrase:

Why bother?

My selfless contribution to the universe has been an unquestionably unrequited affair, and such an unbalanced relationship can never be healthy. So, I'll let things lapse with a whimper rather than a bang, and ponder what's next within the very solitary confines of my imagination.

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

I can't open the video. unluckily..because my comp has limited features. I guess I will have to open it in another venue.

Thinking aloud post? lol...truth is in it, but we have to take it all with a grain of salt.

Cheers and happy blogging.

Unknown said...

I can't believe you mean this. What would we do without you?

Anonymous said...

Yes, what would we do without you Francis?

Anonymous said...

You'll be back. Take it from me Francis.

A word of advice? Do it for you.

Until you do decide to come back you will be sorely missed ... even from the occasional reader. You have a gift, one that won't be easily quenched.

Lets see ... I've gone out with a bang twice...only to return and now I have revitalized and moved to a new home to collect my thoughts. If anyone visits they are more then welcome but that's the extent of it for me.

Whatever you decide...take care my friend. Keep in touch.
~JD

Anonymous said...

I echo the supplicant do it for you first

Jaya said...

Hey... I just found your blog today, and enjoyed my visit very much. I've added you to my list of favorites in EntreCard, and stumbled you as well. I'll be disappointed if you don't keep sharing yourself with us through blogging. I really like your drawings.

Preston said...

You're giving up? That totally sucks! The net is full of abandoned blogs. Stick to it dude. There's plenty of us following you. Don't get caught in that vast wasteland of half-efforts. Keep on Blogging!!!!!!!

Francis Scudellari said...

@Jena More like Screaming out-loud. I don't think you're missing much by not seeing the video, but it's one of my favorite songs. Not everyone is so fond of punk rock music, however.

@Jakill I think the world will revolve quite nicely without me, and I did mean it. I'm not ceasing to write/draw, just trying to figure out the best way to present the products of those efforts.

@JD I definitely thought of you as I posted my goodbye music video. This post originated from a deep sense of loneliness. No matter how much I try to connect to the world, I just end up reaffirming how alone I am in it. I'm going to give a go to a different medium, but I get the sense that I'll suffer the same angst nonetheless. Whatever my gifts are, I don't think they're widely appreciated.

@Robert Thanks, but doing it for me rings a bit hollow as I wonder if it's anything more than vanity. I've been told by several friends that I seem to be searching for something. I am. The problem is that I hoped this site would act as a way to discover something or someone searching for me. It hasn't. And searching in itself, isn't a very rewarding experience.

@Jaya I'm very flattered that you feel that way, and I'll be posting a link soon to my new home where you can continue to share in my work. I don't think I can stop writing/drawing, but I get very frustrated sometimes when I feel no one is paying attention.

@Preston I agree ... giving up does suck. I'm a subscriber to the existential belief that you keep on trying even in the face of inevitable defeat. I'm just trying to figure out a way to maintain a degree of sanity in that process. I may retain this blog in some form, but the bulk of my work will move to my new eponymous site.

Anonymous said...

Hi Francis, As I hope you know I've admired and enjoyed your work here greatly and the tendrils you have sent out from here have spread far and deep.

But, hey, a blog shouldn't have to be an infinite thing. A script or a story or a novel isn't - neither is a drawing or painting. So if you decide this blog is at an end, so be it, let it stand as a testament to the great work and care you put into it.

And then onto the next big thing.

These are frustrating times for the artist, we are handed the technology and the power to touch the world but, so often, the world does not want to be touched.

Don't let the end of one blog phase you (if that's what you decide). Treat it positively and keep creating - that is one thing you *must* do. You may never know your audience but you must do the work which you are driven to do.

so there!! :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Francis,
You may not know it but lots of your readers appreciate you and your work. It may not be that apparent but we do. Don't let go. That is the challenge...keep posting.

Unknown said...

Lots of wise words and encouragement here. If you are determined I can only wish you the best of luck in your future endeavours. And look forward to seeing you somewhere else.

Francis Scudellari said...

@Ken I really appreciate the encouraging words. I think the blog is running its course, and a new site is in order ... hence my recent launch. I'm not sure how things will play out exactly yet, but I want to focus as much energy as I can on the creative side, and not so much on trying to build traffic.

@Jena I'll keep on writing and drawing, there's nothing to worry about there.

@Jakill Thanks for sticking with me, and I hope you'll visit my new site. I need to catch up on yours and other blogs too.

Unknown said...

What's your new url?

Designing Hilary said...

"My selfless contribution to the universe has been an unquestionably unrequited affair, ..."

Then you do not understand the meaning of "selfless."

My favorite blogs to visit are art blogs, but you may never hear a peep from me. Art inspires reflection and thought, and these are internal things for many of us.

Be rest assured, your art is appreciated.