To quote the inimitable Tim Fite, "Fair ain't so fair, fuckers."
There's an endgame. It has an end, but it's not a game. Not in the sense that you have a chance to win it. Not even a lottery's chance.
I've played it before, the game that's not a game, which I've been given, but never non-stop. There have been pauses and breaks, for sanity. That was my mistake. There's no possibility for sanity in a world like this.
It's going to wreck you. What the heck, might as well play it as hard as you can, and wreck yourself first.